Jobs

Unedited: i have recently relized that it is going to be hard for me to find any job that has writeing in it because i have a hard time with spelling and grammer. the problem is that if i want an internship or when im writeing books or research papers it takes a lot more to edit those papers then it does for someone else so why hire someone that it will be harder to hire. my aunt had a job opeaning and she offered it to my cousin its simmlar to a internship and she told me when i aked what the job was that it ws answering calls and responding to emails so i made the joke that i would be hoorible for thaat because i cant spell and thats when she said thats what made her pause is asking me because she couldent check all the emails for errors so i wouldent be the best person to hire she was nice about it and the fact that she doesnt want to hire me it was the relization that this wont be the first time this will happen that upsets me its frustrating that something i have little to no controll of can affect my future.

Edited: I have recently realized that it is going to be hard for me to find any job that has writing in it because I have a hard time with spelling and grammar. The problem is that if I want an internship or when i'm writing books or research papers, it takes a lot more for me to edit those papers then it does for someone else. So why hire someone that it will be harder to hire. My aunt had a job opening and she offered it to my cousin. It's similar to an internship and she told me when I asked what the job was that it was answering calls and responding to emails, so I made the joke that I would be horrible for that because I can't spell, and that's when she said that's what made her pause in asking me because she couldn't check all the emails for errors. So I wouldn't be the best person to hire. She was nice about it. The fact that she doesn't want to hire me, it was the realization that this won't be the first time this will happen that upsets me. It's frustrating that something I have little to no control of can affect my future.

state testing

unedted:  i mentioned that i was takeing a state test in my last blog it did not have a writing part so i could not find any accomdations to use it was on the computer and consisted of a few spelling quistions that i believe i got wrong and sevral grammer questions there were a lot of reading questions as well. i have an above collage reading level (though shakespear still eludes me) and have always excelled in the reading section of tests. grammer and spelling though i have always struggled with when they give me a question with four sentences each with different puncuation i wont see a difference in any of them they all look the same. and i got sevral of thoses questions i am shure that i got those wrong i am almost postive that i ether got all of or at least most of those questions right. i got the results of the test today i got a c now i am a streight a student and usualy do very well on testing now it wouldent bother me as much dont get me wrong i would have been ticked any way but i would have been able to deal a lot better if it hadent broght my grade down 9% in one shot i had worked hard and done lots of extra credit to get 101% in the class and was very very proud of it especaly because i have disgraphia i had hoped to end the year with at least a 98 or 99% i have been working hard and get a report card every week so you could immagin my suprise when i looked at my eport card today and saw a 92% where i had previously had a 101% i was shocked so i went to the computer lab during lunch and looked at my grade online and saw the state test on my grade i was even more suprised to find that i got a c on it.

Edited: I mentioned that I was taking a state test in my last blog. It did not have a writing part, so I could not find any accommodations to use. It was on the computer and consisted of a few spelling questions, that I believe I got wrong, and several grammar questions. There were a lot of reading questions as well. I have an above college reading level (though Shakespeare still eludes me) and have always excelled in the reading section of tests. Grammar and spelling though, I have always struggled with. When they give me a question with four sentences, each with different punctuation, I won't see a difference in any of them. They all look the same, and I got several of those questions. I am sure that I got those wrong. I am almost positive that I either got all of, or at least most of, the reading questions right. I got the results of the test today. I got a C. Now I am a straight A student and usually do very well on testing. Now it wouldn't bother me as much, don't get me wrong I would have been ticked any way, but I would have been able to deal a lot better if it hadn't brought my grade down 9% in one shot. I had worked hard and done lots of extra credit to get 101% in the class and was very, very proud of it! Especially because I have dysgraphia. I had hoped to end the year with at least a 98 or 99%. I have been working hard and get a report card every week, so you could imagine my suprise when I looked at my report card today and saw a 92% where I had previously had a 101%. I was shocked, so I went to the computer lab during lunch and looked at my grade online and saw the state test included in my grade. I was even more surprised to find that I got a C on it.

whats the cause

unedited: the hardest thing for me with haveing disgraphia is probly the fact that there is only spectulaction about what causes it. i tend to be very analiticle so haveing no cause to say this is what wrong and then with that info fugure out what might help. and might make it so i can do what i want to do in life with little or no help. why dysgraphia will affect me is that i love writeing wether i end up writeing on the side or doing it full time i love to tell stories i also love to read( unlike what some people think dyslexia and dysgraphia are not the same i can read at a coloage reading level it is my writeing that is the problem) witch is where i get my insperation. i want to be able to write and not have to sit next to the editor to explain what i want to say. if i have a point of witch to jump off of to go alright heres the problem and heres how i can fix it its hard that i cant do that. i love hearing what you think of my posts please comment and share your opyons.

Edited: The hardest thing for me with having dysgraphia is probably the fact that there is only speculation about what causes it. I tend to be very analytical, so having no cause to say, "This is what is wrong" and then with that info figure out what might help and might make it so I can do what I want to do in life, with little or no help. Why dysgraphia will affect me, is that I love writing. Whether I end up writhing on the side, or doing it full time, I love to tell stories. I also love to read (unlike what some people think dyslexia and dysgraphia are not the same. I can read at a college reading level. It is my writing that is the problem.) which is where I get my inspiration. I want to be able to write and not have to sit next to the editor to explain what I want to say. If I have a point of which to jump off of to go, "Alright, here's the problem and here's how I can fix it." It's hard that I can't do that. I love hearing what you think of my posts, please comment and share your opinions.

unfair

unedited: i took the Act this saturday. i had no accomadations because i was not takeing the writeing portion. but when i was working on the english section i had a very hard time with grammer i had to guess on a lot of questions. in english right now we are working on grammer witch is really hard for me but there isnt a single accomdation( other than not doing it and i dont think that will fly )i can find for it so i will be takeing the final and the crt (witch i think is like a state test) with a signifcant disadvantige next to the others in my class i hope i can pull the five seconds before the test study trick cuz studying for hours a day doesnt seem to work i just cant seem to remember no matter how much i study. im not saying dont study all im saying is that even though i do study and have tryed for years to get grammer right it still evaids me.

Edited: I took the ACT last Saturday. I had no accommodations because I was not taking the writing portion, but when I was working on the English section I had a very hard time with grammar. I had to guess on a lot of questions. In English right now, we are working on grammar, which is really hard for me, but there isn't a single accommodation (other than not doing it, and I don't think that will fly) I can find for it, so I will be taking the final and the CRT (which I think is like a state test) with a significant disadvantage next to the others in my class. I hope I can pull the five-seconds-before-the-test study trick, because studying for hours a day doesn't seem to work. I just can't seem to remember no matter how much I study. I'm not saying don't study, all i'm saying is that even though I do study and have tried for years to get grammar right, it still evades me.

What I've Found

unedted: in my last post i said ive been doing some reseach here is a little of what ive found i would really apperacte it if you take what i put here and make your own opyons and try to verify it on your own and if you want to share what you find with me i would think that is the coolest thing ever.

these are a list of symptoms i found on the website : http://www.dyslexiaa2z.com/learning_difficulties/dysgraphia/dysgraphia_checklist.html
the ones that are highlighted are my personal symptoms:

checklist on dysgraphia

* Written text very poor considering language development.
* Poor motor control.
* Writing that is almost impossible to read.
* Mixture of printing and cursive writing on the same line.
* Writes in all directions, i.e. right slant then left slant.
* Big and small spaces between words.
* Different sized letters on the same line.
* Mixes up capital letters and lower case letters on the same line.
* Abnormal and irregular formation of letters.
* Very slow writing.
* Very slow copying from board.
* Does not follow margins.
* Grips the pen too tight and with a ‘fist grip’.
* Holds pen very low down so fingers almost touches the paper.
* Watches hand intently whilst actually writing.
* Poor spelling.
* Bizarre spelling.
* Problems with spelling wrong words i.e., ‘brot’ for brought and ‘stayshun’ for station.
* Problems with spelling words such as i.e. drink as ‘brink’.

i have found that there are sub types of dysgraphia
from the same sight these are the differented types highlighted are the things that apply to me personaly.

1. Dyslexic Dysgraphia
In 'Dyslexic Dysgraphia', spontaneously written text is illegible, especially when the text is complex. Oral spelling is poor, but drawing and copying of written text are relatively normal. Finger-tapping speed (a measure of fine-motor speed) is normal.

2. Motor Dysgraphia
In 'Motor Dysgraphia', both spontaneously written and copied text may be illegible, oral spelling is normal, and drawing is usually problematic. Finger-tapping speed is abnormal.

3. spatial Dysgraphia
In 'Spatial Dysgraphia', people display illegible writing, whether spontaneously produced or copied. Oral spelling is normal. Finger-tapping speed is normal, but drawing is very problematic.

Phonological Dysgraphia

1. **Phonological dysgraphia - writing words as a pure 'sound' spelling which is incorrect e.g. writing 'brought' as 'brot' or 'station' as 'stayshun'.

 

Visual Dysgraphia

2. **Visual dysgraphia -writing words, which are correctly spelt apart from some letters being reversed, e.g. 'drink' as 'brink' or the bizarre or abnormal
3. and irregular formation of letters. They may sometimes look fine but they have been produced in an abnormal order of pen strokes.

these are some other sites that i have found intersting

• http://nototherwisespecified.typepad.com/blog/2010/01/dysgraphia-when-its-more-than-bad-handwriting.html
• http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysgraphia

Edited: In my last post I said that I've been doing some research. Below is a little of what I've found; I would really apperacte it if you take what I put here, make your own opinions, and try to verify it on your own. If you want to share what you find with me, I would think that is the coolest thing ever.

These are a list of symptoms I found on the website : http://www.dyslexiaa2z.com/learning_difficulties/dysgraphia/dysgraphia_checklist.html

the ones that are highlighted are my personal symptoms:

checklist on dysgraphia

* Written text very poor considering language development.
* Poor motor control.
* Writing that is almost impossible to read.
* Mixture of printing and cursive writing on the same line.
* Writes in all directions, i.e. right slant then left slant.
* Big and small spaces between words.
* Different sized letters on the same line.
* Mixes up capital letters and lower case letters on the same line.
* Abnormal and irregular formation of letters.
* Very slow writing.
* Very slow copying from board.
* Does not follow margins.
* Grips the pen too tight and with a ‘fist grip’.
* Holds pen very low down so fingers almost touches the paper.
* Watches hand intently whilst actually writing.
* Poor spelling.
* Bizarre spelling.
* Problems with spelling wrong words i.e., ‘brot’ for brought and ‘stayshun’ for station.
* Problems with spelling words such as i.e. drink as ‘brink’.

I have found that there are sub types of dysgraphia from the same sight. These are the differented types below. Highlighted are the things that apply to me personally;

1. Dyslexic Dysgraphia
In 'Dyslexic Dysgraphia', spontaneously written text is illegible, especially when the text is complex. Oral spelling is poor, but drawing and copying of written text are relatively normal. Finger-tapping speed (a measure of fine-motor speed) is normal.

2. Motor Dysgraphia
In 'Motor Dysgraphia', both spontaneously written and copied text may be illegible, oral spelling is normal, and drawing is usually problematic. Finger-tapping speed is abnormal.

3. spatial Dysgraphia
In 'Spatial Dysgraphia', people display illegible writing, whether spontaneously produced or copied. Oral spelling is normal. Finger-tapping speed is normal, but drawing is very problematic.

Phonological Dysgraphia

1. **Phonological dysgraphia - writing words as a pure 'sound' spelling which is incorrect e.g. writing 'brought' as 'brot' or 'station' as 'stayshun'.

 

Visual Dysgraphia

2. **Visual dysgraphia -writing words, which are correctly spelt apart from some letters being reversed, e.g. 'drink' as 'brink' or the bizarre or abnormal
3. and irregular formation of letters. They may sometimes look fine but they have been produced in an abnormal order of pen strokes.

these are some other sites that i have found intersting

• http://nototherwisespecified.typepad.com/blog/2010/01/dysgraphia-when-its-more-than-bad-handwriting.html
• http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysgraphia

Before I Knew

unedted: before i knew i had dysgraphia i was confused. i knew that there had to be something wrong but i diddent know what so i kept looking for the answer. i looked at dyslexia but i could read really really well so well i was sevral gades above what i was supposed to be so that was quickly ruled out i looked at add or adhd because i have such a hard time foucousing for that my pairents had me tested for the same reasoni was thinking i might have it but again i was wrong and diddent have ether so i looked more into dyslexia and add trying to find out what was wrong with me. then in fourth grade i was askes to be a typicle kid in one of my moms friends studies i dont remember exactly what they had me do but im guessing some of it had to do with writeing or spelling cuz her friend pointed out that i probly had dysgraphia and a little while later he officaly diagnosed it. now you would think "hey that must have cleared up everything and now she knows whats wrong" you would have been right had my pairents chosen to tell me i would have under stood it better but they diddent i kept looking for answers and never finding one by the time my pairents told me i was leaning twards haveing a very strange case of dyslexia. after they told me i still diddent really understand what it ment and kinda used it as an excuse. when i entered tenth grade that changed i started getting more info on it off the internet and started to understand what it ment and what pices of it i had and thoses i diddent. that is where i am now learning more about it and trying hard to understand why its happiningto me and to others.

Edited: Before I knew I had dysgraphia, I was confused. I knew that there had to be something wrong, but I didn't know what. So I kept looking for the answer. I looked at dyslexia but I could read really, really well. So well, I was several grades above what I was supposed to be. So that was quickly ruled out. I looked at ADD or ADHD because I have such a hard time focusing. Because of that, my parents had me tested. For the same reason I was thinking I might have it, but again I was wrong and didn't have either. So I looked more into Dyslexia and ADD trying to find out what was wrong with me. Then in fourth grade, I was asked to be a typical kid in one of my mom's friend's studies. I don't remember exactly what they had me do, but i'm guessing some of it had to do with writing or spelling because her friend pointed out that I probably had dysgraphia. He was actually the one who officially diagnosed it. Now you would think, "Hey that must have cleared up everything and now she knows whats wrong." You would have been right had my parents chosen to tell me. I would have understood it better,  but they didn't. I kept looking for answers and never finding one. By the time my parents told me, I was leaning towards having a very strange case of dyslexia. After they told me, I still didn't really understand what it meant and kinda used it as an excuse. When I entered tenth grade, that changed. I started getting more info on it off the internet and started to understand what it meant and what pieces of it i had and those I didn't. That is where I am now, learning more about it and trying hard to understand why its happiningto me and to others.

Library

unedted: i love reading and read all the time if i could i would live at the library but i have a hard time spelling the titles of the books i like to read. i was at the library and was looking for the book the museam of theves and couldent fugure out how to spell it i tryed sevral times before calling my 12 yearold sister over to help me she couldent spell theves ether but ill admitt she was significantly closer than i was and nither of us relized that museam was wrong so we ignored it eventualy my mom came over to help us spell theves and we still couldent find it and thats when we relized that museam was spelled wrong to so my mom corred that spelling and we found the book unforchinitly i ended up have to put it on hold because it was checked out. this happenes all the time to me and it drives me nuts. i usualy end up asking for help from the libraryan.

Edited: I love reading and read all the time. If I could, I would live at the library. But, I have a hard time spelling the titles of the books I like to read. I was at the library, and was looking for the book the Museum of Thieves, and couldn’t figure out how to spell it. I tried several times before calling my 12-year-old sister over to help me. She couldn’t spell thieves either, but I’ll admit she was significantly closer than I was and neither of us realized that museum was wrong, so we ignored it. Eventually, my mom came over to help us spell thieves and we still couldn’t find it. And that’s when we realized that museum was spelled wrong too. So my mom corrected that spelling and we found the book. Unfortunately, I ended up have to put it on hold because it was checked out. This happens all the time to me and it drives me nuts. I usually end up asking for help from the librarian.